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Sunday, August 20, 2006

See you soon...

I'll be back in a month or two and will check in with people when I return. Thanks for all your comments -


No Lie

For Jade and Darren, in memory of Devon

Child, don’t cry. So much
Can make us feel so sad.
Just keep your eyes on the prize
Wide as they can be, making your heart
Soft as strong can be, a steel feeling firmly
How it will not/cannot break. We shall overcome.

It takes some time child,
That I will admit for sure. Sometimes it even feels
God made some big mistakes,
As though he made us just to be
Forsaken. Child! Keep your eyes on the prize.
It’s only you and I sometimes
That stand mistaken, when our eyes
Are filled with pain that seems to rain
On everything we care about,
Blinding us with strain. It’s then that we begin
To turn our eyes beyond ourselves, outside that pain,
Sharing in the grace of greater eyes
And so many lives beyond our isolation.

This much is true, though it can be so hard to know:
We have to grow a while, feeling that small blue of being
No more than ourselves alone
Before we see into the wider blue
Of all that we are up to --
Not clearly yet, but with the powerful sincerity
Of meaning it, roaring with a seeking
Louder, deeper, than our self-deceit.
Cry only for that little while because you must
All of my God’s children, and then see:
It isn’t that God doesn’t care. He oversees us
Each and all, but God is very tall and sees things
Broadly – as you and I may even live to see.
Over our own shoulders, he is seeing every one of us,
And that can make us feel alone sometimes,
But God’s on everybody’s side, eyes already on the prize
So wide he sees it all. God knows already: you and I
My child, are only playing catch-up ball.

Yet each of us can see through those same eyes
That are not quite our own
But each of us may borrow for awhile.
Eyes on the prize, we shall overcome ourselves
The way an ocean’s fingertip briefly
Touches just the furthest reach
Of a shore that everybody seeks
And for a moment warms and brightens underneath the sun
Before it melts and fades within
The sea’s embrace again. And yet
This is a tide that has been rising
Since before the dawn of time.

No surprise, the prize is not specific. Nothing
You can buy, though many try and only waste
Their precious little time, eyes on the lie.
The prize is big. Infinitely greater than Atlantic
Or Pacific. There isn’t any package. If you ask,
You may even think there’s nothing to it
But everything is there, not yet aware
My lovely child, learning to stand tall.
Don’t you be another one lost stalling
When the only One is calling to us all.
Think big thoughts. Love large and wide.
For all of us one day will turn the tide,
And it will be there: waters clear and still,
And you and I will even walk on them: one continent
Where all of us will make a common stand
To find contentment in a Promised Land
Where God will laugh out loud and tell us all how odd
He thought it was we didn’t even know
That each of us is chosen.


Paul Martin © 2005

78 Comments:

At 10:43 AM, Blogger schaumi said...

I get the feeling we've met before..

I need to come back later to read this again..

 
At 1:24 PM, Blogger crystal said...

Darius,

thanks for the comment on my blog. Your poem makes me sad. I fear it's true - that God doesn't interevene here to make things right. I hate the idea that we have to slog through suffering here and must look forwatd to some after-death pie i the sky as our only hope. But maybe I'm misrepresenting what you meant?

 
At 1:55 PM, Blogger Darius said...

SCHAUMI, CRYSTAL - I'll be back too. Just a brief remark: the poem was written with a child in mind and directed toward her. Was hoping it was one of those child pieces that also work at an adult level, but maybe not.

Will be interested to see additional thoughts as comments come in...

 
At 4:12 PM, Blogger Don Iannone said...

Darius said: "For all of us one day will turn the tide,
And it will be there: waters clear and still."

Don says:

Dear man,
who brings so many together
and listens to all,
May the God
that brings you
the deepest peace
bless you,
May that God,
in all his glory,
see the blessing you are,
because of who
you have become
with what you were given,
May the heavens open
and shower healing blessings on you,
and may light and lightness
descend upon your being.

Namaste!

 
At 5:31 PM, Blogger kathy said...

Darius

Beautiful poem. Thanks for sharing it with us!

peace,
hope to see you soon.

 
At 6:50 PM, Blogger schaumi said...

When I started reading your poem I felt for sure it was about the loss of a child (esp. the second paragraph reminded me of that...eyes are filled with pain that seems to rain..) ....and it is about loss and the sorrow that ensues. Your poem at first appears sad and melancholy, but on closer reading there is also a lot of hope...
and not just hope for a better afterlife. But hope that enables us to look beyond ourselves and our small petty desires and grievances...
well, you said it...think big thoughts, love large and wide.

 
At 7:18 PM, Blogger ThursdayNext said...

"It’s then that we begin
To turn our eyes beyond ourselves, outside that pain,
Sharing in the grace of greater eyes
And so many lives beyond our isolation."

How true, how true...

 
At 7:25 PM, Blogger Enemy of the Republic said...

This is a poem that feels so real. I too, may cut blogging to a minumum for a while--work, but I don't think I will disappear. We'll see; sometimes blogging relaxes me, but I can't let it get in my way. And it's good to take a break. Don't forget us!

This reminds me of poetry I wrote when my mom died. To lose a child...I don't know if there is language.

 
At 7:58 PM, Blogger Known Stranger said...

no issues - please get your other things done

 
At 8:49 PM, Blogger Stacey said...

Beautiful, hopeful, yet sad.

This was simply wonderful:

The way an ocean’s fingertip briefly
Touches just the furthest reach
Of a shore that everybody seeks
And for a moment warms and brightens underneath the sun
Before it melts and fades within
The sea’s embrace again.

 
At 6:05 AM, Blogger dumbdodi said...

You are definitely not 'just another voice in the wilderness'. Unfortunate I came around to your blog when you are on a break..will wait for your comeback :-)

 
At 6:20 AM, Blogger Darius said...

DON I: Don, really appreciate that.

KATHY, glad you liked it.

SCHAUMI: Exactly, on all accounts. Devon died of cancer around age five. It's addressed to Jade and Darren, his siblings. And "hope that enables us to look beyond ourselves," including even our most real pain, is to me central to what the poem's focusing on.

THURSDAYNEXT: And if the situation's bad enough, and you don't do that, seems to me you get into real psychological/spiritual trouble.

ENEMY OF THE R: Thanks, and maybe one reason it feels real to you is that it really was "addressed" to Jade. I suddenly woke up around five a.m. and her presence seemed so real even though she was a few hundred miles away, that the language just formed itself in relation to that feeling of her presence, as if I were speaking with her.

KNOWN STRANGER: Will do, as soon as this thread is done.

STACEY: Feels that way to me too. And that line you cite's one of the ones I like best too, especially how it sounds or "flows" so to speak.

 
At 6:23 AM, Blogger Darius said...

DUMBDODI: Glad you stopped by and guess you posted just as I did.

I do plan to be back and it don't expect to be gone long. Will add your url to my list of places to visit for when I'm back -

 
At 9:00 AM, Blogger christabelle said...

Hi Darius,
thks so much for this post, u can never know how much it means to me.

my eyes r sure on the prize.

 
At 6:37 PM, Blogger breakerslion said...

I don't know if you could make the meter work, but that poem would make some decent song lyrics. You're not related to Billy Martin, record producer and once-upon-a-time songwriter/lead vocalist for Temperance Hall and the Cloverhill Band by any chance?

 
At 8:15 PM, Anonymous Arkade said...

I am too touched for words. To live and love through pain ....
Arkade

 
At 8:33 PM, Blogger Keshi said...

what a beauty! u wrote that??

Keshi.

 
At 11:31 PM, Blogger Homo Escapeons said...

You have stirred my nagging optimism with your somber words.

You have been burning the candle at both ends Percius or should I call you Darcival!

So sail off for a while and enjoy the view...I just hope that you're a better sailor than the original Percy.

 
At 4:48 AM, Blogger Lillie said...

I prefer, and am grateful to be able, to finally call you Paul. Not the pugnacious Percy or the voice in the wilderness, but the real man who speaks so lovingly to grieving children. How nice to finally meet you, and hear your most personal voice.

 
At 6:04 AM, Blogger Darius said...

CHRISTABELLE: I'm very glad.

BREAKERSLION: Wish I were...

ARKADE: Really appreciate it.

Sometimes, depending on what we're facing, if we're going to keep loving then I guess it's either through pain or it's over.

KESHI, thanks and yes.

HOMO ESCAPEONS: I think I know what you mean by an optimism that's "nagging." It's tough these days to open a newspaper or listen to the news.

LILLIE, glad you liked the poem.

A rose by any other name... You've just run into this blog recently, but hopefully people haven't had any trouble hearing that the voice on this blog has been for real all along; whereas I think anybody reading "my profile" on the other one would realize it's a made up character. But he's fun to do for a diversion once in a while.

 
At 8:55 AM, Blogger samuru999 said...

wonderful and beautiful!
Loved this one!
Thank you!

 
At 3:06 PM, Blogger goatman said...

Too bad the child will probably not understand it?

 
At 3:50 PM, Blogger Darius said...

SAMURU999, I'm glad, thanks.

GOATMAN: Her mom has a copy - so when she's older...

 
At 7:41 PM, Anonymous SH said...

Did poets come up with the idea of God and the rest of the people just took them too literally?

 
At 3:57 AM, Anonymous Gangadhar said...

beautiful!!

 
At 7:16 AM, Blogger Darius said...

SH: Perceptive comment - caught me by surprise! Not sure if you've been reading long enough to know that I don't believe that what I call "Og" - Other-God or Objectified God - exists. And that's what most people think of when they hear the word God.

That's not usually what I mean by the word God; but in this poem (and in some others) I'm basically using the Og idea as a symbol and metaphor.

GANGADHAR, thank you -

 
At 8:32 AM, Anonymous SH said...

Darius,

I follow your blog for quite a while and I've read about your position on "Og vs. God." What I'm wondering, however, is the following. If you are using the imagery that you know is commonly understood very differently from what you have intended for it to imply. Then, are you not misleading your readers into believing the very thing you do not believe in?

 
At 10:11 AM, Blogger Darius said...

SH: Thank you for that thoughtful question.

I'd like to think it's more like I'm making postive use of a powerful religious symbol by trying to nudge its connotations along in the unifying rather than divisive direction of what to me is the real meaning of the word God.

Poems don't give you an opportunity to clearly articulate ideas like God vs. Og. So if you write poetry that's spiritual or religious, you sometimes have to make use of words and symbols that are "out there" and try to work with them in a way that maybe begins to distance them from what I'd regard as distorted and false meanings.

 
At 4:37 PM, Blogger White Forest said...

inspiring!

 
At 8:34 PM, Blogger mistipurple said...

don't go away too long. will miss you. though i have to use quite a bit of brain here, i will miss you still.

 
At 6:44 AM, Blogger Darius said...

WHITE FOREST, thanks.

MISTIPURPLE: Me too, and no longer than necessary.

 
At 11:13 AM, Blogger gautami tripathy said...

Glad to know you, Paul! You will be missed. Sorry for coming here so late.

I pondered over your poem for long!

YOu indeed make me think!

 
At 6:17 AM, Blogger Darius said...

GAUTAMI, thanks, and will not be gone any longer than necessary - one of the things I'm doing is starting another blog and will redirect people there when this happens...

 
At 10:46 PM, Blogger Don Iannone said...

How goes it Darius. Thinking of you.

 
At 2:25 AM, Blogger Kayliz said...

nice!!

 
At 4:55 AM, Blogger Darius said...

DON I & KAYLIZ: Appreciate it -

 
At 3:07 PM, Blogger Bird said...

just flew by to check it out and say hello.

i see all's quiet here on the gospel front.

i'll flap back by later...

 
At 8:50 AM, Blogger ghee said...

Darius,

I had a good read,you never let me down..you made my eyes teary again coz of your post.Thanks so much!

My one month vacation is over,now its your turn,just take care of yourself and i wish you goodluck!

More power!

 
At 4:55 PM, Blogger Pauline said...

In spite of loss, you entreat the child to "love large and wide" - what a good way to heal.

 
At 10:32 PM, Blogger Keshi said...

u r awesome!

we r chosen.


Keshi.

 
At 6:25 AM, Blogger Darius said...

BIRD: Hi, Bird... will have to wind down on this blog too for a month or so after this thread stops, but see you again pretty soon -

GHEE: Welcome back, and glad you really liked it.

PAULINE: Yeah, I think the only way. Sometimes I wonder how Darren's doing. It hit both kids really hard, but differently. Darren was Devon's fraternal twin. And they definitely had that bond people talk about twins having.

KESHI: And an awesome compliment - thanks, mate.

 
At 7:38 AM, Blogger boneman said...

you'll keep us "posted"?....oh. I get it
You'll keep us "posted"

yeah, wink wink.
Sure....

Posted.

(huh?)

 
At 7:40 AM, Blogger boneman said...

Actually, of late, I'm beginning to feel there are no bad things at all anywhere.
Not that I'm being naive...
only that, like all humans, have no real idea of what the dickens is going on.

 
At 8:27 AM, Blogger Darius said...

BONEMAN: Your thought that maybe in reality there are "no bad things" and "not knowing what's going on" to me sounds like it may testify to your faith and humility.

At the same time, as Linus says, "Pain hurts." So I have to think it would be a good thing if people could learn how to avoid causing unecessary suffering. There's plenty that's unavoidable!

 
At 8:47 AM, Anonymous Rachel said...

Just stopping by to say Hi and Bye for now, Darius. Take care of yourself and keep in touch.

 
At 8:58 AM, Blogger mistipurple said...

*flit flit.. see how you're doing*

 
At 7:04 PM, Blogger Darius said...

MISTI, RACHEL - Thanks for stopping by, I'll be back in the fall, hopefully not much more than a month -

 
At 9:15 AM, Blogger Stacey said...

Darius, just wanted you to know that I am thinking of you and wish you well. I hope everything is well (as good as can be). I will miss you!

 
At 5:19 PM, Blogger boneman said...

Yes sir, you are correct.
On all counts.

Faith and humility coupled with love are the foundations of my life.

Though, as you pointed out, if only we could realize and stop the pain and suffering we cause others...
dang!
The problem with my earlier statement is that a sociopath would use it to inflict pain on others, and possibly even ask for thanx, later.


Still, the bare bones of it stand, though it needs improvement of sorts.

 
At 3:34 AM, Blogger Ghost Particle said...

come back soon and come back safe buddy. Hope your trip is a learning experience of different times.

 
At 7:47 AM, Blogger mistipurple said...

you're not forgotten....
take care! will wait for you here.

 
At 4:25 AM, Blogger UARIDI said...

Darius, I hope you are well.

God allows us to experience pain and hurts to help us grow. We cannot live on fluffy alone. When a child is in pain, the parent will hold and soothe her and although this does not take the pain away, the child is comforted. This is the same with God, although we cannot see with our eyes.

I know this is no comfort.

 
At 9:43 AM, Blogger samuru999 said...

Hope all is well!
Thinking of you!

 
At 10:02 AM, Blogger Darius said...

UARIDI and SAMURU999: Thanks for checking in. I'm fine. I'm planning to return to blogging, but with limited available time, I need to drop it for now in order to attend to other matters.

I find it's easier to just stop cold turkey for a while than try to dabble in it. Blogging is so interactive (and I'm so long winded!) that it's easy for me to get too distracted and not get done what needs to get done...

I'll definitely touch bases with everyone once I'm "back" -

 
At 6:08 PM, Blogger mistipurple said...

blogging can be distracting. but used in a good way, it can be therapeutic.

 
At 12:36 PM, Blogger hazzbuzz said...

Hi Darius, this poem seems so real it made me tremble. I would like to pass it on to my children.

 
At 5:56 PM, Blogger Darius said...

MISTIPURPLE: It's only a distraction for me in my circumstances at this time - because I don't have enough hours in the day to get some stuff done that has to be done. So it's just a time thing. I'd rather be blogging!

HAZZBUZZ: Thanks so much; hope they like it. I sort of feel like Jade wrote it since it was only through me "speaking" to her that it got written.

 
At 12:24 PM, Blogger iamnasra said...

Hope you will back soon..you are already missed here..Take care and come back safe and sound...This poem had touched me the greatness is to understand that we are merely created and the creator is there forseeing all

 
At 5:17 AM, Blogger christabelle said...

hi Darius,
hope ur doing gr8, just stopped by to check on you and say hi.

 
At 11:02 AM, Blogger Darius said...

IAMNASRA, thanks. Hopefully this poem gives people who read it similar feelings. Probably how they would understand it would show some variation around differences in what people mean by the word "God."

CHRISTABELLE, hi. Wish I had less to do, would like to get back to blogging...

 
At 11:16 AM, Blogger boneman said...

So, it would be nice if'n y'had time, but, then y'wouldn't have a job....
Dang!
Maybe that's what they meant bout tit fer tat.

Would'a liked yer comment on the last picture posted...having not actually seen the thing, the lights and all.

But, maybe one of these days I'll get t'the city.
So, what would I do t'run into ya? Walk into a police station somewhere and holler out that "everyone who ain't a poet is a pussy!" and see which one don't come over and beat me?

 
At 10:47 AM, Blogger Darius said...

BONEMAN: Thanks, and I'd really like to but I can't... it's too easy for me to get drawn back in. If I start commenting to one blog I'll feel like commenting to others... Do you want to email me the url for your post on that picture, or the date of the post, and I'll flag it for when I get back to blogging? Or just remind me when I get back.

As to New York - you're thinking of that other guy! I hardly know anything about the city; and who really knows if he does either...

 
At 4:31 PM, Blogger boneman said...

oops...sorry.

So, yeah, I'll tuck it away.
However, I'm still such a caveman when it comes t'these 'puters, though.
url?

that ain't like lol, is it?

nah.
didn't think so.

And, as it turns out, the painting bothered me some, so I changed it, anyway.
I'll keep it quietly until that other guy gets back....

 
At 12:45 PM, Blogger Doug said...

Darius,

Enjoy your hiatus!! And I'm looking forward to reading more of your posts! This poem you wrote was quite inspirational!
BTW- I moved my blog, in case you haven't noticed already.

 
At 8:02 PM, Blogger Known Stranger said...

waiting for you to come. another 2 more days to get 30 days mark

 
At 7:53 AM, Blogger Darius said...

Please Note…

I really appreciate people continuing to express interest. I’ll just ask that you all bear with me. The stuff I need to get done before I get back to blogging is taking more time than I thought it would – it will be months and not a month.

I’m severely disabled and semi bedridden. At this point I have to spend around eighteen hours a day flat on my back. It makes for short work days. In this condition, it’s impossible to both run this blog and get much of anything else done.

So I’d rather get what needs to be done finished and then return to consistent blogging. Otherwise, I’ll end up being repeatedly interrupted by the other stuff.

I apologize for not responding to people’s continuing comments on this thread individually as I’ve normally done, and hope you’ll understand.

 
At 10:20 PM, Blogger mistipurple said...

oh dear, you sound like in pain. i offer some prayers for you to lighten your burden. hugs Darius.

 
At 7:48 AM, Blogger Darius said...

MISTIPURPLE: I appreciate it. It's a long story though. Progressive, undiagnosable, and it's been over 12 years.

Look forward to getting back to blogging at some point in the coming months. My pause isn't due to the condition, but having a huge amount of other stuff I need to get done so that when I get back to blogging I can be sure of doing it regularly.

 
At 9:02 AM, Blogger christabelle said...

Aw Darius,
I'm so sorry about the condition but I can sense a very strong person here, take all the time you need and come back when u can, my prayers are sure with u.

Take care.

 
At 10:43 AM, Blogger Darius said...

CHRISTABELLE, thanks, and I look forward to getting back to this...

 
At 2:30 PM, Blogger mistipurple said...

i leave you more hugs. but not too hard hugs. just in case. and you don't need to reply. please take more rest and don't strain too much. wanted to let you know you're in my prayers again.

 
At 7:52 PM, Blogger Enemy of the Republic said...

Miss ya dude.

 
At 12:45 AM, Blogger iamnasra said...

just sending wishes and hope u will return soon...we are always here

 
At 2:48 PM, Blogger Darius said...

MISTI, ER, IAM - Thanks, I look forward to getting back to blogging too, but it will take a while. Think it's going to be at least a few more months. I'll be stopping in at people's blogs when I'm back, plus this blog will redirect to the new one, so you'll know.

 
At 12:18 PM, Blogger Stacey said...

Just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you, Darius. Miss you!

 
At 9:58 AM, Blogger gautami tripathy said...

Though you are missed but you have to do what's got be done.

You are one strong individual. I wish you the very best.

*hugs*
gautami

 
At 10:30 PM, Blogger mistipurple said...

know that you are loved and missed whilst you're recuperating. hugs, gentle hugs for you. don't reply. rest more k? leaving a prayer for you to cope well.

 
At 10:19 AM, Anonymous Rachel said...

Hi Darius, I was thinking of you today and wanted you to know. I hope you are taking good care of yourself.

 

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